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rabiah's avatar

i wish i could repay you the softness of your words tenfolds, but i can only say this: thank you for writing, for sharing your happiness and grief and love with us. forever wishing you gentle days.

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Sally Burke's avatar

Memories are ours to keep, some good, some not so good, but they are all part of the fabric of our lives. My sister rang me again yesterday, twice within a couple of days which is unusual, she was saying you never know how much time you have got, now I’m wondering is she ok? I’ll ring her again just to check in on her. Thank you Mo, you have made me give more thought to what life is about, particularly regarding grief. Big hugs and a Merry Christmas to you and yours.

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Marjorie Pezzoli's avatar

Heartfelt words and beautiful memories. Grief is the weirdest rollercoaster, never wanted this ride. I do appreciate the view at the top - pure love. Not everything has to sparkle, I have learned brokenness has its own incredible light.

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Wendy  Gray's avatar

Wrapping a Big HUG around you, Mo. Even in the depth of your sorrow, you are sharing such precious words of living this life. The path of grief is not straight, it goes up and down and makes sudden stops in a flurry of scribbles, circular and wriggly, all over the place until it finds a way to move along again. In allowing the feeling of all of it, we come through it. Yes, there is a through, though never an end. No end, because love doesn't have one. We love in the realms of joy and sadness. The beautiful thing.....it is all okay. Each day it becomes more and more clear....it will all be okay. One day at a time, dear friend. One moment at a time. MUCH LOVE to you and sending many, many prayers for comfort and peace. ~Wendy💜🙏🕯💞

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Hannah's avatar

This was very sweet. Thank you for sharing such a moment with us just like you share the happy giggly sparkling newsletters. This equally plays a great role in the genuity of your emotions that are shared through words with each post.

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Mohika Mudgal's avatar

i'm hugging you right back 💜

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Mike Speriosu's avatar

I loved the poetry of this piece. Thank you for sharing these tender feelings with us, Mo.

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Mohika Mudgal's avatar

Thank you for being here, Mike 💜

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Elizabeth Grace Martinez's avatar

that is honestly the craziest thing about grief. you think you're in remission and then it comes raging back. and you're never quite sure what is going to trigger it. you walk around feeling like something is "wrong." and that's because there is something wrong - the person you love is no longer here. So it's ok to accept that this is the time to feel your grief.

It feels so strange, I always felt out of body after I lost my dad, for years. I'm coming up on the 3 year anniversary and the grief hits out of nowhere. But it passes quicker now into gratitude for having had him.

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Mohika Mudgal's avatar

i feel you. i feel everything you've written. i'm so vulnerable it takes me at least 2 mins to get myself breathing again and be inside my body. currently i'm at the stage of crying at the drop of a hat and immersing myself in good habits, conversations so I don't end up digging a ditch and diving head first in it with ciggs and alcohol. Tbh i'm so proud I haven't used any sort of external intoxicant as a crutch for grief. i'm really so grateful to see your comment and i'm so sorry about your dad. many many many hugs to you 💜

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Elizabeth Grace Martinez's avatar

it’s an accomplishment to get through each day. give yourself grace for surviving right now

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Yolanda Valdés's avatar

Thank you, Mo for sharing such tender moments. 🙏🏽

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Mohika Mudgal's avatar

& thank YOU for being here!

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Faye Boam's avatar

such gentle, tender moments, Mo. thank you for sharing your heart with us. sending you warm, golden swaths of love

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Mike Speriosu's avatar

Omg just realized I left almost the same comment as you! Glad you’re a fan of Mo’s too.

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Faye Boam's avatar

me & Mo are birthday twins 👀✨∞

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Mike Speriosu's avatar

Whoa! What’s y’all’s birthday again?

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Mohika Mudgal's avatar

July 17th! but our years are different! We're crabs!

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Mohika Mudgal's avatar

bathing in golden light as we speak!! <3

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Marilyn Graham Werden's avatar

Thanks for sharing. Glad you and your grandmother can share your grief in such special ways.💜

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Marilyn Graham Werden's avatar

This is what drew me to you— the relationship you have with your grandmother.

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Mohika Mudgal's avatar

i'm so blessed too! 💜

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