You crave what you can count on
Things that stay when you can't
I wrote this late at night thinking about what I craved, what I needed most from myself and the word surfaced: dependable.
Dependable is what you can lean on when everything else is shaking.
dependable/ the body of a military truck/ a double knotted shoelace/ cumin, coriander, fennel tea to digest the indigestible/ as sure about me as waves scurrying to shore/ scuttling baby mice in the maze of my mind/ grey gregarious gnomes/ leaky love poems stowed safe in the back pocket of a levis denim jean/ vintage 501s for a drooling heart/ reliable: like pearls/ orbs of gleaming delight/ hit of nicotine straight to the bloodstream from hand rolled cigars/ bright burning orange/ distorted, dirty, delirious debauchery/ the relief of recognition between lust, terror, or the smell of jasmine in the air/ pages of a well-loved book dog-eared by eager hands/ the sharp sting of sea salt on wind-chapped lips/ sunflower petals curling towards the sun/ the taste of honey on a sore throat, soothing/ copper pennies tossed into wishing wells/ the steady beat of a drum in a heart that knows the rhythm of hope/ moon on a sleepless night, promising, always, that dawn will come.
I make lists because the world is littered in turmoil. Internal as well as external. I try to keep track of what’s real. My lived experience. I keep drawing blanks, zoning out, travelling to outer space. Writing what I know to be true keeps my soul in my body. I write it down—the stuff that sticks, the things that don’t change no matter how feral life gets.
What do you depend on when things get tough?
What’s your go-to, the thing that never lets you down? Share it if you feel like it, and maybe take a moment to see what others have to say too. It’s good to know we’re not alone in what we lean on🤝
Thanks for pausing in this little corner of the world to read my late-night musings on what we crave most when life feels unsteady. I hope my words remind you of your own anchors—the things that never falter.
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I depend on a powerful statement 'I will sail through' in every tough situation and keep reminding myself of it. I show absolute dependence on my innate abilities to cope up in any situation. Good work, Mohika. You burn midnight oil lamp to bring such food for thought for us. God bless you!
Out to the "drooling hearts", always! What a list.
I'm trying to think of substantive things I can depend on in life. There's obviously my best friend, who I have known since I was five. Someone with whom I have almost 40 years of shared history. Not ever-present or as eager to evolve as I am but comforting in his loyalty, care and self-assurance.
My housemate is also a long-time friend. Very steady, clean and considerate – qualities you would want in someone you live with. He is notorious for his chattiness which is disarming. But he's not one for vulnerability or sitting in uncertainty for too long. Simple answers to complex questions? More so. That means you can't always bare your soul with him, and neither he with you.
The most dependable thing in my life, through all the disappointments, rejection and loss, has been myself. My resilience. After a short period of wallowing or mourning, there is always a resurgence. A life force that is defiant.
Beyond that, an unshakeable faith that someone out there will move me with an epiphany in words or song. And I won't need to look too hard for it. That there will always be the humble yet satisfying crunch of granola to sate me. That the everyday beauty of the natural world will reveal itself in parks, sunsets, shadows, murmurations and all that good stuff.